Cacao, Tea, & Me….
Sunday night, October 20th, 2019 I came home after a deeply profound experience attending and participating at the Hecate’s Key- A Weekend Intensive, presented by Gina Martini in collaboration with The Temple of Hecate, Inc.
I have spent decades as a solitary witch. Learning and growing at my own pace, discovering things on my own and through the writings of many. At times I participated with other groups or covens as an invited guest. I always gave all the many Goddesses, Gods, and powerful entities a healthy nod of respect while never devoting myself to any of them. There had been times when we worked together for mutual benefit without any commitment past the singular working. It worked and still works for me.
I have attended The Morrigan’s Call Retreat 4 times now. My first time was their 3rd annual gathering. I went with two friends who very much wanted to share the weekend experience and introduce me to more aspects of the Great and Dark Goddess they worked with known as The Morrigan. The first year, I didn’t attend any workshops. I was late and missed opening ritual. I still kept to myself, mostly. An introvert who feels like an outsider intruding. Still, I was very comfortable being there emotionally even though physically I had much healing still to do. Although we learn more of ourselves and other people over the course of time and I am no longer friends with one of the women who enabled me to go that first year, I will always be grateful to her.
It would be 9 months later when I would feel the strength of my connection with The Morrigan. On February 20th, 2017 I survived an AMI, a massive, acute heart attack. I was rushed into the Cath Lab at a hospital close to the one I went to where they actually listened to me and accepted I couldn’t have anything they could give me in that moment for pain management. The surgeon told me I have to be perfectly still while they ran the catheter wire into my heart. I closed my eyes and I called Her to me. I clearly told Her, “You know I am strong enough, but if you would hold me still while I’ve do this, I’d appreciate it.” I felt a heavy, warm sensation lay over me and over my left shoulder. I felt her lay over me to hold me still and comfort me. Don’t get me wrong. When they cut into me and punctured my artery, the only thing that hurt more was when they withdrew the catheter from the incision and was tightly suturing my arterial puncture closed. After the procedure was completed my surgeon moved to where I could easily see him. He wondered where the blood on my neck came from yet wasn’t in the least surprised when I said without thinking “my Goddess cries tears of blood.” In the few years since, I have yet to see any other reference as such, and it was a one time occurrence for me, its become part of my own UPG. In my heart I believe it was The Morrigan who held me down and kept me safe by preventing me from moving.
As part of private study with Gina,
I have taken to daily talks with The Morrigan, Tea Time, if you will.
I had Cacao with Hecate the first Monday Morning after the Hecate’s Key Retreat. It was a quiet, easy feeling. Nothing much was said save that I said good morning and thought back on images of time we shared together through the weekend. She responded by showing me images of time long gone but of this lifetime we also shared together. Her way of showing me She has always been there, has always been with me, whether or not I acknowledged it or knew who She was before now, but now She wanted me to know that among other guides and guardians, She too has always been with me. Now it’s for me to decide how I will foster and build this relationship going forward.
Talking with Gina and learning that she worked closely with Hecate first and that it was through Her guidance she began to work with The Morrigan as well, was enlightening and encouraging. As strong, powerful, and influencial goddesses, they aren’t jealous. That was a Key for me and how I started to think about this new relationship I am developing with Hecate.
For over a year now, I have had my
first cup of tea of the day with The Morrigan. Now, my morning cup of
Cacao is spent with Hecate. Just as I have a shot glass full of
finely ground Irish Tea on my Altar for The Morrigan, Herself, I now
have finely chopped pure Cacao paste in a mini bud vase for Hecate
because after our first cup together I got a very clear, “I liked
that chocolate.” As they are food products, they can not be left
eternally. I add to them as I feel called to through the month and I
refresh them monthly. Its what feels right for us right now. That’s
what it’s all about, at least for me; keeping open the communication.
It works both ways.
Interestingly, I learn the most when I
am talking with them from the heart. When I feel they are listening,
I am the most open and honest with myself. It matters. It matters.
It matters.
~ Deborah Meyerriecks, Started October 21st and completed November 28th, 2019
